How Discovering My Psychic and Mediumship Abilities Tamed The Dark Night of the Soul

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If you have done a bit of research or find spiritual stuff interesting, you’ve come across the phrase ‘The Dark Night of the Soul’. It is a topic of focus when people talk about Spiritual Awakenings. It is a subject that arouses images of turmoil and struggle, with terms like ‘depression’, ‘anxiety’, ‘hopelessness’, and ‘sadness’.

What makes the ‘Dark Night of the Soul’ most fascinating is that it follows the beautiful experience of a Spiritual Awakening, feeling a purity of love that you had never experienced, experiencing emotions so intense and so fulfilling that there is no other place to want to be. The Spiritual Awakening seems to come from no where then hits you with a wall of bliss that you sink into with full trust and surrender. But, such are the laws of the universe, what comes up must come down.

To experience a place of bliss to fall slowly and steadily back down to earth only to keep falling into the dark night of the soul is to experience the truest knowing of deprivation and longing. What was once your greatest reality is now a memory. Why couldn’t I stay there? Why would the universe do this to me? Why don’t I deserve to feel that again?

Now, you know too much.

“To experience a place of bliss to fall slowly and steadily back down to earth only to keep falling into the dark night of the soul is to experience the truest knowing of deprivation and longing.”

Imagine feeling like you cannot go back. Stop- don’t do that. Don’t feel that. You don’t have to feel that.

Consider that the spiritual awakening you may be ready for, the bliss state you may already be in or the ‘Dark Night of the Soul’ you may be traversing could all be assisted with discovering your innate spiritual abilities.

Here’s my story.

The Unexpected Knowing

In the Fall of 2018, I experienced what is called a Spiritual Awakening. It was not planned. It was not expected. And, I certainly wasn’t prepared for the change of reality that would take place and that continues to this day.

At this time in the Fall of 2018, I was a year into a new job that was comfortable, enjoying the family life with my three children and hubs in our, new-to-us home. But, I was also feeling a little restless. My third child was about one year old at that point and I was ready to feel my autonomy again. I had been interested in attending medium galleries at a local Spiritualist church for years and followed them on Facebook when a ‘Mediumship 101’ class was posted. I signed up for the class just to check it out even though I had never witnessed these abilities in myself. I was open to seriously considering that other people had these abilities but not necessarily myself.

So, I went to the class. I was surrounded by strangers and felt a little out of place but, that was kind of my natural state anyway at that time. We did some meditations and exercises to connect with our imagination, which is one of my favorite places so, I was down. Through these exercises of imagining and exploring, weird coincidences were taking place where I was possibly connecting with someone’s dead grandfather and where I was possibly psychically seeing other people’s meditative adventures. There was so much coincidence, so much possibility, so much ease, so much… energy! Half way through the class, we stopped for a snack break. I felt pumped with so much energy that I literally wanted to run around the block during that break but, didn’t because I thought other people in the class would think that was really weird. But, that’s what I wanted to do. I wanted to expend this pent up energy that was shaking up my core that emerged about during the duration of this class.

I had experimented with meditating and psychic stuff in the past but this time was different. This was possibly proving something, something that I had never connected with myself before…. that I could be psychic!

I left the class in a daze. Did I just witness the impossible… or am I just wanting to believe that I’m a psychic? I had never felt that pull to want to be a psychic before so, that seemed illogical. And, in all honesty, I was kind of hesitant to go to the class because I didn’t think anything would come of it and… I had to put pants on on a Saturday. The worst!

“There was so much coincidence, so much possibility, so much ease, so much… energy!”

I got home and went out for dinner with my hubs, probably pretty excited about the class I just did. Then, we got back home and I comforted my awakened baby back to sleep. Back to regular life, you know. But, I wouldn’t go back to regular life. There was no regular life anymore. If the end of that day was it for my journey, I was still exposed to an idea of possibility. But, what I didn’t know was the ‘regular life’ that I knew was going to abruptly end with the birth of a new reality.

The Spiritual Shift That Was Led By Discovery

Going to bed that night was a not a normal night of sleeping. I kept waking up. I kept experiencing what I describe as ‘looking at my bedroom with my eyes closed’. Perhaps, out of body experiences. The next day, my head hurt and I just stayed in bed and slept for hours and hours. Nothing felt too different but, I wasn’t conscious for most of that day.

Then, it was Monday. Time to be a responsible adult and get to the ol’ 9 to 5, or 5:30 AM to 1:30 PM for me. But, I didn’t wake up normal that day. I woke up anxious. And, as the day continued, my anxiety heightened. My chest burned. This uncomfortable anxiety became the phrase ‘I want to crawl out of my skin’. And, it kept going for days. Eventually, I talked with the teacher of the Mediumship class who suggested ‘White Light Meditation’ to sort of neutralize the anxiety. I tried it, which is basically just visualizing white light filling you up and surrounding you, multiple times a day with great success. Days later it was subsiding. And as it subsided, the ‘typical’ Spiritual Awakening experience started to take place: colors were brighter, tastes were tastier, words were profound, and, very special to me during my awakening, I felt close to the sky. Another ‘Spiritual Awakening-ism’ that emerged was describing that ‘I wanted to crack my skull open and expose my brain to the sky’. It sounds weird but I still feel this deep in my soul as a comforting phrase of that time.

My Spiritual Awakening was taking place and never before had I ever considered that I would be someone to experience this. I also had never really looked into this kind of thing. But, it was happening to me and I couldn’t help but scour the internet about this amazing bliss that was my reality AND that this is a thing that people experience.

My awakening wasn’t just basking in the glow of bliss. It was an invitation to explore. Witnessing the possibility of my soul abilities one day and then days later feeling unconditional true love from the sky felt like a door had been opened. It was just standing there calling me. So, I walked through that door and not only accepted the invitation but brought my shiny new tools with me to really start the journey of exploring this ‘imagination place’, to see if psychic or mediumship abilities were for real, if these abilities were mine. But, this journey wasn’t one to see the specialness of myself, it was a journey to witness truth and reality- what is within reach of the mind, logically, honestly.

I knew from the Mediumship class that meditation had showed me possibility before so, now I wanted to put possibility to the test. Meditation was a journey to witness evidence and be objective in determining it’s truth- of my abilities and of it’s existence.

“My awakening wasn’t just basking in the glow of bliss. It was an invitation to explore.”

My Spiritual Awakening Sans ‘The Dark Night’

During my spiritual awakening peak and waning, I felt my mission became finding truth of this spiritual realm- for me, for everyone. So, I meditated. I retrieved. I accessed. I scientific-proccessed. I instinctively brought my logic to this excursion- that’s how I knew to find truth- but utilizing the imagination in the process certainly presented it’s challenges, as you can… imagine.

Through this journey, I got the evidence. I witnessed the impossible. Moments of revelation. Experiences that stunned me. Truth that showed itself but that led to more questions than answers.

After several months of gathering evidence, I had to admit the truth. I was capable of having psychic and mediumship abilities- in fact, I was experiencing them. I could tap into these abilities easily.

Once I could say, “I’m a psychic”, however, I realized that I’m not ‘a psychic’. I realized that I was not one of a few who had psychic abilities. Knowing that psychic abilities were not accessible for 33 years of life and now are accessible, I realized I know how to do it… and, that, everybody else has the same accessibility as me.

“I was given the keys to the castle.”

What gets in the way is not being aware of the possibility AND to also know that utilizing your spiritual soul abilities is an exploration of the imagination. We all have access to the imagination. Knowing there is a door and how to get through the door… this has became my purpose and mission.

The journey into and through my spiritual awakening was not just to be shown a beautiful place to be. I was given the keys to the castle.

In the four years since my spiritual awakening, I have yet to hit a tailspin of depression. I grew up with depression and have lived the reality of living with it. So, when I hear stories of ‘The Dark Night of the Soul’ that follows a spiritual awakening, I can only think that my keys to the castle were the ‘key’ to not experiencing it.

The Dark Night Exists Because You Didn’t Walk Through The Door to Visit Your Soul

When I hear other people recollect about their spiritual awakenings, mine stands out in that there was a little something extra- an exploration- beyond just becoming aware. I was able to cross over and play. I am not left with memories with feelings far removed from ‘that one time’. I was given a new world to acclimate to with time and an unfolding to reveal.

I cannot imagine the heartbreak people must feel of having the bliss of an awakening then watching it fade away. I can imagine feeling hurt, resentful, and abandoned by the very thing that gave birth to this new life.

But, I think not given the awareness of coming back to the soul place is what causes ‘The Dark Night of the Soul’ after an awakening. While an awakening gives you the most intense closeness of source, expecting that to sustain to that degree can be disappointing. However, opening the door of the imagination is a way to reveal more of the journey, to continue the inspiration and dance with spirit, source, the divine. It also led me, personally, to eventually understand my own intuition and gain empowerment in leading my own way.

I say, you don’t have to experience the loss of the awakening.

I say, get those keys to the castle that source is handing over to you. This is your prime time to witness and discover!

Tools To Connect You to the Spiritual Realm Are Already There

It is through the process of discovering my abilities that I recognized that this has to be available to anyone and everyone. A switch had to be flipped in order for me to recognize it. Then, I had to test it and really hold ‘witnessing truth’ as my priority above all else. I did not want to buy into a false impression but I didn’t want to cloud my judgement with the fear to accept that my understanding of reality is starkly different than any other person I know around me.

I have made it a mission to share my story and my understanding. It is also my mission to empower and try to give a guiding hand to those who want to judge for themselves.

For those wanting to explore this stuff for themselves, I have listed a few recommendations to get started.

Then, build the skills to see what is coming, discover your purpose and personal guide of the higher self, help people by transferring energy to dysfunction or connecting the grief-stricken to this possibility that there’s more to the world than that that can be seen with the naked eye.

Meditate

You’ve heard it before and you’ll hear it again- meditation is such a great tool to connect. In fact, utilizing meditation became the basis of my first year of connection and messaging while I acclimated and discovered evidence of the soul world.

Start giving purpose to your meditations by asking for proof. “Show me your truth. Show me evidence.”

Create

There are many different ways to connect with your creative energy and doing so puts you in alignment with yourself and source energy. Being creative can be a time when energy and messaging flows right through you in ways that you might have never recognized before. Ultimately, an inspired state is a true state of connection with source and your own purpose.

Get Guided

While the first two suggestions I have given require less direction and less guidance on creating your own connection when integrating with the soul world reality, there are more intensive and immersed ways that may benefit those really feeling the depth of the dark night of the soul.

There are many people out there that can help guide you into understanding this new world. I’ve put my voice and inspired thoughts out there to help people like you, who may be interested in this subject or have first hand knowledge of the dark night of the soul.

About the Author

Sarah Nickerson, founder of NextGEN Medium

Sarah Nickerson

Psychic Medium, Spiritual Life Coach

Sarah Nickerson is the founder of NextGEN Medium, the NextGEN Medium blog, vlog, and host of the 'NextGEN Medium Podcast'.

She is a partner at the spiritual center Angel Connection in Bangor, Maine as a psychic medium consultant and offers online and in-person workshops to guide others uncover their true selves, create the life they want, and help expose people to their own innate psychic, medium, intuitive, and healing abilities.

Her mission is to expose people to their true selves, their innate abilities, and to help them become the master creators of their lives.

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